ahh .. dl

if i could
bring myself to say it
id tell you
i get a kick out of your outfits
if i could
bring myself to do it
id touch your hand
when we talk
if i could
bring myself to
form the words
id tell you
how wonderful you smell
id rub your shoulders
id let you catch me looking
if i could
id ...
but i cant
yet

painful truths

1 i'm 319 pounds and i don't remember that i am until i look in the mirror. everyday it's a brand new slap in the face
2 i've had sex once in the past six months; prior to that it was nearly a year
3 i've begun to seriously consider a divorce
4 i need therapy
5 my son is stressed out
6 i'm in lust and i want to act on it